My lost little one
As I sit here and think of my lost little one
I think of what you would have been like,
Would you have looked like me?
Would you have fit the family?
I think about you and wonder my darling,
I wish I could have met you, if only held you once,
I know you had to be taken away,
to be at home where I too will be one day,
I know my lost little one that you are gone,
gone but not forever
In my heart I know that one day we will be there together,
And I will never let you go,
No one will hurt you, my lost little one,
I fought for you, please believe me I did
I fought to save you, but he was just too strong,
He took you away, and left me that day,
I want you to know I love you, and to know I am sorry,
for making you go, the way you did,
the doctors said it didnt hurt you,
that you had not felt anything,
and I hope they were true,
because I could feel everything
I wish I could do it again, I would have been gone,
gone away with you, so that he could not do us wrong
I would do anything for you, you are my child,
my shining star, my life
I know my words can not change the past,
but they can change the future,
My lost little one,
it will never happen to your brothers or sisters,
I will protect them to the death,
I will not let them go too,
I had to lose you, that was hard enough to do.
You are my first little boy and believe me I remember you,
I love you my son, my little man, my kye
I miss you
xxx
From rebecca on 08/01/2009